Letting Go of What I Think Healing Should Look Like

Greetings from the BrazilianBubble in Abadiania.

I don't know if it is my own personal process but life has been challenging lately.

Lots of physical pain doesn't help.
I flew over the handlebars of my bicycle two weeks ago today. The front wheel jammed when my bag fell into it and I went flying head over heels onto the pavement in front of Frutti's.
I broke a carpal bone on the side of my left hand and cracked a rib that day and the pain has been increasing.
* the rib was cracked, interestingly enough, right in front of my heart *

I had been listening to feedback from lots of friends and acquaintances that I would benefit from slowing down -
Be careful what you ask for . . .

Maybe I'm processing some planetary intensity or just on an intense astrological ride -
(MercuryRetrograde in Scorpio or Mars moving into Cancer) but, whatever it is, I'm knackered.

Speaking of Astrology, Melody Zindell in Boulder, wrote in her newsletter last month at www.depth-astrology.com
"The Mutable Grand Cross we have been under has had a tendency to bring a lot of jittery and accident prone energy, especially with Mars in Gemini opposing Pluto in Sagittarius at 26 degrees on September 21-22, less than a degree from the Galactic Center. This along with the strong Virgo / Pisces theme of the eclipses and various transits to Uranus has made this month one of significant shifts and changes, many to further unfold and develop during the next six months. As we feel these powerful impulses, any blocks or unconsciousness will be met with a certain amount of edginess and volatility with Mars involved, so continue to drive carefully, speak gently, and try to stay grounded, breathing deeply through your feet! "

. . . My bike crash was on September 28th . . .

Even the Medium Joao is going through it. He got back from the States on Tuesday and did not show up at the Casa yesterday or today (Thursday) and the the doctors have told him to take tomorrow off, too.

Abadiania is a mixture of disappointment, shock, taking it in strideness and some relief.
"This is just not good enough," said a couple of Americans today.

Being here in Abadiania for 3 months really takes the pressure and intensity off "getting what I need" and having my healing here at the Casa look a certain way.

Other folks, who are leaving this week or next, are not so happy about his absence.
They do not yet realize that A) The LovingSpirits, The HealingServingEntities are the ones who do the amazing healing work here and they are always here, they are always anywhere and just a prayer away and B) That everything is perfect and that impatience and disappointment are what they need to experience now.

It is as it is.

Last night at The Pizza Place a foreign gent asked me if I was upset that John of God wasn't here this week.

I told him "No, I'm not upset.
At all.
I am sending João, the man, all the good thoughts."

"I'm tired from going to VagaFogo near Pirinopilis (about 50 km away) yesterday with my regular Tuesday group . . . I can only imagine how he feels after traveling thousands of kilometers, seeing over 6000 people at the Omega Institute in upstate New York in four days and then flying back to Brasil . . . plus, no matter how much the Entities encourage him to improve his diet, João Texeira de Faria, like many of us, turns to food - unhealthy "comfort" foods, under stress. I hope his absence is only exhaustion and not a more serious health matter. I had the experience of being here at the Casa last week when João the Medium was in North America. The currents here last week at the Casa, my spiritual process and my connection to these Entities was just as strong - if not stronger - than when the Medium is here and 'in the chair'. I'm not in the least upset that he wasn't here today. How were your currents?"

He didn't believe me.

"Do you realize how much I have sacrificed, how much energy it took, how much it cost me to come to Brazil to see John of God?"

"Coming here is a big deal for everyone. Many very sick people borrow money to come here to have a chance at their healing.
I understand your disappointment.
I encourage you to write a "Letter to God" admitting where you are and asking for everything you want - everything - and putting it into the triangle tomorrow."

"Let me know if you begin to get or move toward what you want, what you came here for."

"The portal between dimensions here is more open than most places on the planet.
I am constantly amazed at how fast I get what I want here when I ask."

"Slowing down and being quiet also really seem to help, I added."

"See you at soup tomorrow."